I Still...

[Brolik]

Stressed and depressed it's true I can't hide it I tried it

My future's undecided aggression

You can see it in my facial expression

I try not to show it as much as I can

They say I got a problem drink like my old man

Just when I feel I can't I know I can

Be successful only find failure when I search

You see a brother smile not realizin' he hurts

Lookin' for direction Grandma suggestin' church

But I don't like mysteries and that's how the Lord works

At first I thought I'd be in college with the pig skin

Rap is a hobby then I fell in love with the pen

Normally nothin' bothers me death follows me

All I do is bob and weave life is a test

Failed again will I succeed yes

All I do is have to believe trees

Keep a brother calm though my sanity is gone

Look at the scars on my arm

People wanna know where they came from or what do they mean

It kind of looks like I had a fight with Wolverine

No dream the only thing I have is faith

I know it's more pleasant on that Pearly Gate

But wait hopefully I have a couple more years left

Then I'll man up and stand face to face with death

[SixXx]

The chip on my shoulder's a boulder now

I'm older now my blood runs colder now

[SixXx]

I ask why did they die and why am I cryin'?

Why am I tired of relyin' on rhymin'?

Me I've been worse than the persons I speak of

I'm cursed and I wreak of perversions a freak of

Nature I hate to be bitchin' complainin'

So I smoke alot of weed take a fifth to the brain and

Just let the pain inside of me fester

I've cried I confess but a side of me's messed up

See cryin' it hurts more than helps cuz in this case

The tears on my face symbolize I'm a disgrace

I've looked for a book or a God to believe in

I've reached and I've tried but inside I'm a weaklin'

I'm tired of seekin' a sign or an omen

I'm tired I'm broken tired of copin'

Tired of hopin' I make it I'll make it

Tired of chokin' I take it I've wasted

A whole lot of time and a whole lot of years

Smoked a whole lot of dimes drank a whole lot of beers

Not a whole lot of fear when it comes to my death or

My takin' of breath's just a break from the pressure

I ache and possess a threshold of pain

I've become this numbness inject Novocaine

I've searched for the answers I've searched for the truth

Man I've searched for the reasons I've searched for the proof

The chip on my shoulder's a boulder now

I'm older now my blood runs colder now

[Brolik]

While I'm here I gotta work have eternity to rest

I learned Checkers never knew life was like Chess

[SixXx]

Born precious livin' a life that's lifeless

And the pressure's diggin' a knife in my chest

The chip on my shoulder's a boulder now

I'm older now my blood runs colder now