If Not For Heaven

Hello to the girl I loved

I wish to see you again

To caress your smile disbelief

Entangled hands in red hair

I guess that there's no sense in dreaming

To fear upon your bed and wait

I guess that there's no sense in living

This fear inside me braves on

Now before I wander

Into the storm

I'd breathe your name

And fall again

And pray to you once more

But you would push me in

Into the rain

And close the door

I fell before

To embrace the eyes of him

But I must move on

Into the end

Sweet empty hands of embered rain

To never fill upon me again

I never wanted this

I never wanted this

I never wanted any more of this

Hello to the girl I lost

I wanted to see you again

Hello in the ground I fill

To reach for heaven

You were the best friend I had

If not for heaven

If not for her

If not forever

I wish I could hold onto

Things that she was

To feel again and fear the same as you

Things that she was

But never would I feel

And all that she would say is

Not to win, not to blame

Not to live, not to save me

From this song I never wanted to sing