Holdin My Breath

V1

I hold my tears till im underwater

So yall don't never see me cryin

Holdin my breath till I can resurface

But I can feel myself dyin

Too long without oxygen in my lungs

Maybe im tired

Maybe its time for me to breathe easy

But I could never let you see me

Give in to bein underfire

No matter how short I breathe I get

Cause to let it show is to let you know

At times how weak I really get

And im trying to be strong for the both of us

Hold on for the both of us

But how long can I hold by breathe

For the both of us

Its too much on my shoulders here

And I just cant cope with it

Knowin deaths round the corner

And im standin so close to him

Im supposed to show no emotion

But its getting harder to focus

Cause the reality of my life here

Is that I have no control of it

Feel the need to come up for air

But with you there I must hold it

And yeah I know how close I come everyday

But I could never let you know it

Its too much for you to feel my pain

So I send you all smiles

Holdin my breathe telling you its alright

But the truth is im drownin

Chorus

Sample is saying "holdin my breath for you"

"so you never see me crying"

v2

this is so close to bein over

but we aint left here yet

and its been rainin the whole time

but I managed to never get wet

while those around me soaked

from the moment the first convoy left

but who knows cause the way things goin

any day now I could be next

and I aint trying to see yall back home

with my problems on your chest

so the truth evolves into what I think you need to hear

just to relax

so for you im always at my best

I continue to see clearly

But I could never lie to myself

And the truth is im more than a little worried

But that part of my heart

Stays closed when im on the phone with my family

How can I expect them to handle something

Im havin a hard time handling

And as strong as I may be

Can carry this weight forever

Cause im fallin apart underneath it

Trying to piece myself back together

Hopin for the best

But at times the worst seems to get the better of me

So its everything I got not to let you see

Whats really troubling me

Can feel my lungs under pressure

And they are beggin me to breathe

But I cant, not with you standin there

So I hold my breath till you leave.