So Much For Plan a

I'm giving up. never gave up on anything before in

my life. congratulations. because of you I'm believing love

is a lie. you tell a girl the

truth, that you're falling for her and she rips

out your heart, and throws it on her shelf and

you never get it back. it's too much

for me (I'm giving up) too many times I've had

to stitch up the wounds. I'm taking myself off the

field. you'll never hear me say I love

you. I remember the time you were impatiently waiting for me to

kiss you. and I was nervous cause I didn't know what you

would do. would you lean over and use me? get what

you wanted and dispose of me? (or would our love finally be

real? ) or would love finally be real? and we'd live

together happily. fat chance. sometimes I still think about

you. remember those fun times we had. and those holidays of

hell you put me through, run constantly through my head. thank you for

rejection left under my tree. my new

year's resolution is to never date

another girl. another girl like you.

never date another girl like

you. I'm throwing in the towel. I'm giving up.

never again. you'll never hear me say I

love you. so much for plan a.