Blind

Shown up, beat down, fallen through ground

Looking up, out beyond my reach

I'm not good enough - I don't wanna be

Excuses they blanket my mind

They'll be the death of me before I die

As long as I think I'll try

I'll be alright

BLIND - to where I've been

I see only what is theirs

BLIND - to where I am

Why must I compare

I'm speaking not saying - anything

Of substance - not used to describe

My meaning

Distrusting, I learn to believe

I'm not good enough - I want to be

As long as I pretend to try

I'll be alright

BLIND - to what I've done

To who has paved the way

BLIND - to what they see

And how will I repay

Open up my eyes to see the way I have to be

So fuck this shit that drags me down

I've paid the price to crawl this far only to

Slam into the wall of my own twisted mind

I've got to do it anyway