Consequence

I can't stomach the thought

It's sickening

I burned the bridges

That you made for me

So why would you put up with me

I've broken every form of trust

That you could build

With a boy who's fatherless

Anyone else would

watch from a distance

As I drown myself in selfishness

But no, not you not you

Though I wish you would

Branded like I'm someone

Else's property

I feel like such a waste of life

When you'd say to me

It's ok son, I'll always love you

But mother I'm so afraid

I won't stop hurting you

My mind can't handle

Your normality

I get so lost in thoughts

That no one else would ever dream

Step off, come back

No just abandon me

I'd rather you be free

I need something more them help

Before I end up

In hell itself

It would seem there's only

Demons in me

I can't stomach the thought

It's sickening

I'm tired of losing this

Battle inside me

I think it's time to give

This fantasy

To think that I could unwreck

My history

Take all that I am

Be alive in me

Here me now

I am your child

Broken on my knees

Please God be the freedom in me