saw ur mom at the grocery store

I saw your mom at the grocery store

She texted me afterwards

I felt like falling on the floor

She said: I miss you, hope you’re doing well

And I wish we saw you more

And I knew that was a lie

'Cause you haven’t talked to me in at least six months (months)

I thought that I was healed but now I'm open like a cut

Cause I saw your mom at the grocery store

And she asked me how I was

I should've told her the truth

That I don’t know who I am after you

And I can't stand to look at that fucking pair of

Shoes I used to wear with you

Or the pictures that I framed of you

Oh, I, feel like I'm split in two

But I asked about your sister instead

'Cause that’s what nice girls do

Driving home, the roads all look the same to me

I pass your house, I block out all the memories

And I don’t miss you, I don’t wish you well

I wish you felt what I had felt

She has your eyes, she looks like you

I should've told her the truth

That I don’t know who I am after you

And I can't stand to look at that fucking pair of

Shoes I used to wear with you

Or the pictures that I framed of you

Oh, I, feel like I'm split in two

I should’ve let her know that I deleted all the playlists on my phone

Cause every time that song plays I just wanna call you

So, I meditate now, but the silence is almost just as loud

Oh, I feel like I'm split in two

But I ask about your sister

Oh, I asked about your sister

I should’ve told her the truth

I’ve been terrified, for months, of seeing you

Every white car makes my heart stop

I cut my hair, I meditate

Everything, but change my name

Oh, I, I’ll never be the same