Deceive The Pain

Tonight I look into my eyes

Just trying to...

Find the connection, the words and the will

and the sense and the beat of my heart

How can I

With all these traps

Keep recalling your eyes and rejecting my...

Way to deceive the pain

Where are you trying to find the way?

What if I erase all of you, from my side

Pull off the sheets of that part of my life

I want to be heartfelt

I want to stop the oppression

Of trying to climb out of my fucking errors

And trying to hide my stupid indecision

And I don't want to forget a word from you

And I don't want to forget any part of you

I would rather carry this burden

Than break away any memory of you

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot

The World forgetting, by the world forgot

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

Each prayer accepted and each wish resigned

I want to feel the pain

I want to feel the hate

I don't want to deny

I want to feel the pride

To be strong enough

To carry on with my rights and my wrongs

Life's a game to lose

It's hard to face that

I need to call your name, MOTHER! FATHER!