Visions Of (dis)illusion

I jump in cold sea of misunderstanding

I see the darkness rising in her eyes.

I try to run but there is no place to hide

Seeking for escape, bewildered

I feel your sharp eyes in my back

I hear your whispers, like poison

I try to run yet I am paralysed. Lost my faith in humanity

I see her pain and disillusion

I no longer wish to be hurt

Fragile see her stand there before the closed door

By the hypocrisy

To which I am subjected

Is not the world better off

without me?

Unable to open it without my help

I hear you whispering in my ear

You are the queen of my world

I hear you calling in the distance

You try to pull me back to your world

I try to cry, try to die, but there is something keeping me here

It is the illusion of you, loving me

Understanding me, giving me warmth

Giving me strength, to hold on

To be strong, to be warm and to be saved, and to be loved

To be, happy, ever after being happy

The illusion, disillusion

I try to live happily in

The illusion, disillusion

But I can't stand the pain

I hear you calling in the distance

But I'm not listening anymore

I hear you whispering in my ear

Feeling your arms, around me

I hear you calling in the distance

But it's too late now

You won't whisper in my ear again