Mind Cellar

My problems just seem so calculated

And i knew it from the start

Maybe not by mind, but i knew it by heart

Mind cellar, here i dwell

Unseen horror, my private hell

You can call me a liar or a fool

But know that to me it's real

It's sickening me, but this is me

Mind cellar, here i dwell

In darkness, i'm not well

My scars define who i am

There's no backtrace - i was born wounded

Your angels cause me pain

You are probably insane

Thanks for taking the pills away

But that did not heal me at all

I can't see

How it should be

Or who is responsible

All i do is

Channeling energy

So blame me

I will not conform

Or believe what you believe

Because what i am makes you wrong

I've shown you evidence, pictures from the past

I told you many times, but i suppose you were

Deafened by the symphonies of common logic

It's not cryptic, pretty simplistic, you just refuse to absorb

Not surrealistic, truth centric, this is the way it is

You have got to accept my death, i can't leave you burned

There's no glory for me to take in this, there's no glory in death

I won't expect you to shed a tear, this is not an empathy thing

I don't understand your obsession with blame, i never put you to shame

Like you did to me when you chose sides

Let me close my eyes, be no obstacle

In the path that i must crawl to be free

Now when i look over my shoulder

Nothing's changed, all is logical

I'm sorry to disappoint you like this

But i can't help having found my facts

I - can't - revert all this

I - can't - revert all this

I - can't - revert all this

Mind cellar, down here i dwell

Mind cellar

And now i hide from you

Hoping you'll forget

Forgive me who i am

Forget what you saw of me

Turn your eyes away

Lay your focus off of me

So i can leave more easily

To take the pain away