Now And Then

you see it was drawn easy, my services for a rewarding fee.

never thinking then of the hundreds i've hurt.

their morals and family so deserted, you see,

back then my mind was conned, caught in a pipe dream.

understand my path set forth from a struggling background.

mom always worked her hardest maintaining her four hounds.

scared and afraid that my own child's future was at stake

quickly reacting was where i made my biggest mistake.

filled with dillusions i fell,

i fell deep in my grave carried by deceits devouring waves.

i can still remember her nights in tears of rage

never giving up even with her life in a ruthless maze.

took a harsh lesson for me to understand life.

what once was taken granted stabbed with a knife.

i've towed along loved ones throughout my experiences,

placed them in torturous wars when it all was needless.

now and then i failed to think deep clear inside.

now and then i rather maintain a modest existence.

now and then never again will i barter my freedom.