My Own Sweet Paradise

There's a city somewhere

Where buildings stand so tall

Of iron and concrete

Making us look so small

Maybe that's the thing that i've always wanted

A smokey skyline, if the sun ever shone

With empty streets, ever hazy

Where everyone once just leaves me alone

There's a landscape somewhere

Where we took that picture together

With soft fields of wheat

Jesus, i could hold that wheat forever

Maybe that's the thing that always made things go wrong

I don't know how to treat wheat

Always shatters funny in my hand

It's so much more fragile than meat

I was so interested

But you never wanted to try too much

I was just listening

But you babbled excuses in crazy dutch

I was staring in the eye,

You were looking to the sky,

You were eating apple pie,

While i just wanted to die

I'm going to take a walk

Down that narrow, grayscale road

With those chalk-like lampposts

And that sweet strange scent that reminds me of home

Maybe it's just too much to take

Maybe i just deserve to be left by myself

But if i ever hear you speaking my name, again

be sure, i'll send you straight to hell

I was just wandering

But you came out of nowhere and fucked my life

You want out desperately

But i'll just make sure you won't play with me twice

I just wanted to fuck tight

But you kept your pussy dry

I was waiting your reply

You just sighed a brief goodbye

I wanna try my new jeans

Though my legs are too skinny to fit

I don't have a choice

I don't want my ass hurt when i'm taking a shit

My parents once told me i was gonna be grand

Well i don't think so, it's too much far fetched

I don't have a future planned

It's safer to live, without having strings attached

I just want peace of mind

A place in which i can fit without wondering why

Fuck it, might as well be hell alive

Somewhere i can be insane, in my own sweet paradise

in my own sweet paradise