Astigmatism

Picture this, visionist, servin 20-20 vision

With the future stigmatized, insecure of how he's living

Addicted to a past never coming to fruition

Yet still viewing through the present without aid or provision

Exorcism of the demons, leave the shell of man lifeless

I'm 19 years old - stuck in a midlife crisis!

Look left, look right, say "fuck it" then go straight

When the fork came, I took it - started clearing off my plate

Til fate stepped in and gave a little boy his courage

A flashlight in the dark - gave his soul its sole purpose

That's why this pen will never stop - the pad will never drop

Each surmounted height spawns another needing to be topped

Until the goal is manifest, communicated clearly

Emotively emancipated, lay it out for you dearly

Sincerely yours, now and ever, til it reads on the tombstone

"Here Lies Alexipharmic", his work done - now going home

[Chorus:]

Lay it all out on the line, I wonder how I'll be remembered

Cease the moment while it's given, holding hands with time together

Light shine in through the darkness, lift my head through stormy weather

Through it all it's now or never, and I'm siding with forever

Heavy handed benevolence, a self-evidenced perfectionist

Documentary through writing - filmed without hesitance

And no alternate lenses, no varying perceptions

Just an author and his camera, filming his own reflection

I can't promise that one day any of this will make sense

Between logic and insanity I shimmy cross the fence

Smiling down on the spectacle, fertilizing both sides

The grass growing greatly equally on the divides

In retrospect, it's most convenient to peer back in hindsight

Second-guessing each decision, unforeseen by blind sight

But all I ever wanted was to understand conditions

All I ever needed was to diagnose these symptoms

All I ever wished for was to pick apart the fragments

Fixing something out of nothing, mixing change in with the stagnant

And all I've ever given was a piece of the part

So you can put it back together before it all falls apart

[Chorus:]

Lay it all out on the line, I wonder how I'll be remembered

Cease the moment while it's given, holding hands with time together

Light shine in through the darkness, lift my head through stormy weather

Through it all it's now or never, and I'm siding with forever