Enough

I can't sleep

This feelings ripping through my body

I can hardly breathe

What's happening to me?

I feel scared, alone, lost, confused

Feels like all my life in my mind I've been abused

I can't see clearly, Can't think straight

Condition's got a hand on me

And I can't turn back, it's too late

Sickness always comes at a cost

Nineteen years old and five years lost

Should I blame it on my father?

Is he the one that fucked me up

Or did I bring this upon myself

The wrenching feeling in my gut

Screaming won't help

And bleeding won't either

But the drugs that I take

Help me function better

No one can save me from this hell

Things are bad when everything is well

Afraid to live, too scared to die

Everything's a mess, I can't comply

Lost all possible world perspective

When all the others were friends and I was rejected

What was I supposed to do to fit in

Suck up my anger and throw out a grin

While inside I was hurting from an open hole

The piece of me that something stole

And I can't control the way I shake

I feel like I'm about to break

Am I going insane, is my brain shutting down

Am I losing my balance, will I fall to the ground

What am I supposed to do?

How am I supposed to feel?

What am I supposed to think when nothing seems quite real?

I've had enough

I've had enough

I've had enough

I guess I'm giving up