Choose to Be

I wasn't expecting you

you took me by surprise

and I don't know if you can see it

but it's right behind my eyes

the answer to a question

that I didn't know I'd asked

and you know

I didn't believe the tides

could wash over me so fast

and I've never

seen this before

and I've seen so much

oh god I wonder what it takes

to understand happiness

and I

am standing on the edge

and I'm not afraid to fall

I'm not dying

I'm not hiding

I am not anything at all

but this time

I choose to be happy

you know I never believed

that I could have something good

didn't think that it was possible

didn't think I could

but now I'm kicking down these walls

and you're tearing at these chains

and I am starting to believe

that I must be insane

cause I've

never seen you before

and I've seen so much

oh god I wonder what it takes

to understand happiness

and I

am standing on the edge

and I'm not afraid to fall

I'm not dying

I'm not hiding

I am not anything at all

but falling

and I don't care where I land

I'm falling

and now I feel like I can stand

cause this time

I choose to be