Dancing With My Confusion

dimmed down bedroom lights

better stay quiet everyones tired

my minds forgetting my mothers advice

you never play with knives and alcohol

its so sad im everything to her

but to me im nothing at all

swallow it take it down drown out this town

and the sound of nothing

that seems to loud to ears waiting

ready to hear a new sound

and eyes that are blinded to all outside lights

maybe i forget to tell myself that these nightmares

cant become real

maybe its nothing

maybe i forget to tell myself that

if dreams come true then nightmares can too

and this monster that eats at my brain and my heart and arms

called growing up

this state is a hand-me-down sweater sown in shit

that ive grown out of and dont want to deal with

but i dont think theres an escape

every city is the same city with a different name

but i would never kill myself

because even now heaven so closely resembles hell

through just another window on the side of

a street that leads to nothing

only circles around itself

so impatiently i wait for change to save me

from this grave i dig myself every night

take my mind away and say that everything will be ok

give it back to me everything will never be the same

self destruct

everything will never be ok