What I Had

I stare holes through every girl I see,

I try to make them fall in love with me…

I spend my nights in between different sheets,

While you're home alone…

I know my heart belongs with you back home,

But it's with my body on this open road…

With other bodies I don't even know,

While you're home alone…

I spend my days without leavin' my feet,

Workin' two jobs so our two boys can eat…

I miss you lyin' here right next to me,

But you don't and you won't…

You say that all you need is one hit song,

Well how much longer 'til it comes along?

We need you here to keep this family strong,

But you don't and you won't…

You love me but I don't love you back,

It's hard enough to face this as a fact…

All that I want is to make a good life for us,

But you're stuck at home and I'm stuck on this stupid bus,

I'd give anything if I could make good on my promise to you…

I'm sorry I've been gone since May, (it's alright)

Six months ago yesterday… (it's okay)

I promise one day things will go our way,

And we'll be a family…

How much longer 'til you come back home? (I can't say)

When you're here promise you'll never go (I won't go)

Oh thank God, you know I love you so...

I can't say that I won't go…

I love you but you don't love me back,

It's hard enough to face this as a fact…

I'm so sick and tired of the things that fall out your mouth,

I'm packin' the boys up and then we're heading South,

To start a new life that is far far away from you…

Oh don't worry baby, in two weeks I'll be coming home to you,

Don't bother baby, can't you see? I need you to understand we're through…

Don't say that sweetie, trust in me, I'm turning that house into a home,

Just save it baby, I'm taking the children, don't pick up a pen or a telephone…

I love you but you don't love me back,

I love you but you won't take me back…

Don't worry baby in two weeks you'll be back out on your road,

Sleepin' around with those other girls,

Makin' them think they are your world…

Don't worry sweetheart, trust in me,

I'll take good care of the family,

I'll turn these sweet boys into grown men,

We'll never have to bother you again…

Dear God forgive me for what I've done,

I never realized what I had...

I just ask one thing for my sons,

Please give them a better dad,

One that's better than me...