Hope Springs from Somewhere

The days stretch out into endless fever dreams

I could sleep all day and I will but there will be no reprieve

From exhaustion

Spent years thinking I had years but now everything's fragile

Or shot to hell

Now I keep wasting time trying to clarify and define my life

But everything seems like a blur

But I wake up again

And things aren't so meaningless

There's a life to live and a world to rejoin outside

Hope springs from somewhere

There's a new day and I'm alive

What more could I ask for?

Keep wishing for sleep to come and take away pain

But nights are too restless for it to be helpul

Trying to focus on future days even as I'm mired

In the moment

Old songs and memories are friends that watch over me

And everyone's close by

I'm fucked, I'm exhausted, and I'm scared

But feeling oddly luck to be alive

But I'm not leaving yet

Staying up playing chess with death

For so many years I was so hopeless

And now hope is the only thing keeping me alive

Hope springs from somewhere

There's a new day and I'm alive

What more could I ask for?

Here comes another day, and that's something...

It's not much but hope's a start