Smile 4 Me

My life

Is in the arms of the man upstairs

Through trials and tribulations

He'll always be there

You see I know he loves me

And I know he cares

And he'll bever put more on me

Than I can bear

[Verse 1]

Is it a blessing to live or a blessing to die?

Let me finish out this hell with no questions why

I should be happy I'm on and dressing fly

But is the game changing me for the extra pie

If you could look into the life I live

Three sixty catching up to all the trife I did

Got my people up north trying to slice the bid

While I'm in love with a nigga with a wife and kid

Maybe if my pops ain't abandon me

I wouldn't let so many niggas take advantage of me

Using me some even put their hands on me

I wonder what the most high got planned for me

My life line getting shorter when I look in my palms

Swore I'll be nothing like my biological mom

She ain't raise me so naturally I never felt a bond

At 16 got my GED never saw a prom

[Chorus]

I been weak and I been strong

I been through the fire, I been through the storm

Try to do right and I know I do wrong

Just be happy for me when my life is gone

Cause no more hurt and no more tears

There'll be no more pain and no more fears

No more people in my face that's not sincere

So smile 4 me when I'm no longer here

[Verse 2]

At a young age I let the world turn me out

Pellets and purple haze been burnt me out

A hard knock life is all I learned about

Trying to eat the only thing I be concerned about

Telling my youth everything happens for a reason

Let him know ain't that his father wanted to leave him

If it wasn't for the streets he'd still be breathing

Trying to raise him myself but I know he need him

Me and my seed used to live off mostly welfare

Only two checks a month for us both to share

I remember making sure that the coast was clear

So I could boost us some muthafucking clothes to wear

Had to hustle 'cause them food stamps just wasn't enough

Upstate back to Broadway gott to go re-up

All this fast cash only turned the heat up

Can't afford to get knocked but who gonna feed us

Chorus

[Verse 3]

Can't shake these thoughts of suicide

Anyone I ever loved or was close to died

Ones I trusted or thought was being true lied

A lifetime of tears but only a few I cried

Try to take my past stick it up on a shelf

But my actions stem from all the pain I felt

I'm just trying to make the best out the hand I dealt

If I fall who can I turn to for help

Hope my man with me or with my health

Will he be there through good and bad sickness and health?

Does he want the real me or somebody else?

I been in wars just so I don't jurt myself

Now that I'm on most can't stand me now

They was happy when I rocked all them hand me downs

When I need them funny how they can't be found

That's why the most high's my only family now

Chorus