Castle On a Cloud

For you, alright, look

I story to tell her, pennies into a wishing well

See it's hard to cope with a kiss

That you can't tell in a word

That you can't spell in a victim, who can't yell

And they under your fucking nose

With a sickness you can't smell

And the problem is that you really crying for help

Nobody out there can hear you

It's like they silent shit yell

It started when he was 7

Continued to when he was 12

And in the middle of the night

Found another man than himself

But this man was confused, this man was abused

See this man was a tool

To the sickness that he let loose

In fact didn't he abuse, molested and he abused

To the person that he affected was lesser than finna shoes

Damn, he affected the chance to choose

He never gave him an option

He told him what to believe

But never gave him a doctrine

Now little boy bloom, he's just like you

Sick in the head can't die but he'd like too

Damn, same dreams every night too

Screams every night too

Thinks that he's like you

Says every single day there's new demons inside you

They scream and they fight you

They scream to remind you

Of all the fucking pains still breathing inside you

And they give a million reason to die too

But nobody ever sees what's inside you

I know it 'cause they ignore my screams and my cries too

I met a girl once, went through the same thing

She told me shit happens, but things change

Things change, she told me all this pain

Don't mean change, you gotta take it and remake it

'Til it means strenght,

But I ain't strong enough, I don't think I'm strong enough

Why me man I wasn't even old enough

I wasn't strong enough, wasn't even bold enough

Would've told my mom but that shit would've torn her up

And she was torn enough, and he was mister perfect

And now it's trivial I guess I was just fucking worthless

I just want you to know how much it hurt me

Because of you I feel like I'm not a person

So I sit here with this blade in my hand

I got the pain of a child and a brain of a man

And it's so loud, I wanna fucking scream but I don't know how

I wanna let it go, but I don't how

Yes, it's so loud, I wanna let it go but I don't know how

It's so loud, I wanna let it go but I don't know how

I wanna fucking scream but it won't come out

Tried to escape but there ain't no out

Now I'm stuck here in this castle on a cloud

Castle on a cloud,

Never going up, never getting out, never coming down

Castle on a cloud,

Never going up, never getting out, never coming down

For you