Dirty Gold

Take a breath, say you love me

We both know that everything changes

Keep in mind that none of this is fiction

This is just a glimpse into the head of a menace

We were two different children

But we born of the same moon

Blowing entire opposite

We were brought up the same too

I used to hate you because they celebrate you

And you made them notice every single thing I can’t do

But really I honestly wanted to be you

And I just hope my desire to wasn’t that see through

I never took into account the things that you were hiding

I even understood your rage when I see you get violent

I guess the height of all my envy was leaving me blinded

Until you sat me down and told me how crazy your life is

You said to run and never look back

And if I did, to never lose track of all the hurdles I was jumping

That lead me to my current goal

Don’t sell your soul baby you are dirty gold

Took a chance, said you’d love me

We both know that everything changes

You found me when I was dying and unappreciated

You broke me down into a science that I completely hated

You told impeccable talent didn’t make me less average

But how I use it to my advantage determined my passion

It took some time to understand and manage

But then I learned this passion was the method to my madness

And I never got to thank you, at least not in the way I planned

But I had to learn before I did that, I hope you understand

It takes a lot for me to bury hatchets but consider them cremated

All the ashes burned to ashes

And I’m dusting off my vocal box and finally saying thank you

And even though you ain’t my fan, you did the shit they ain’t do

So disregard my temper and the times I fucking hate you

Because despite all my ignorance I’m really fucking grateful

Never forget the importance of the sparks you hold

Took a glance, to some error

Now I know that everything changes

I used to hate me, I swore my life was too painful

Let my demons overtake me before I fight with my angels

There was constantly a struggle to see my life at an angle

That provided understanding of how much drama could change you

I used to cut myself open just to feel like I was living

But when living is just dying then there’s no longer a difference

There’s no longer existence, and there’s no longer persistence

And there’s no longer a drive there existing on only division

And I thought, if nobody ever loved me

This vacancy inside me must be really called a bloodstream

Then I looked into the world and saw a million people like me

Probably never know your stories, but you’re the reason I’m fighting

You’re the reason I’m writing; music

Could be so reviving

And if ever you tend to forget, I’m right here to remind you:

Don’t ever give into the hurt you hold

Don’t sell your soul baby you are dirty gold (3x)