Smile n' Hearts

You know my mama use to always say that struggle is worth it

Because within struggle is purpose

And purpose is where your worth is

And a lot of people don't wanna live to see that

To me, they should

It's hard to dream with your eyes wide open

But if you keep 'em closed you can't really see where you're going

And maybe i'm just a dreamer and the world ain't really my home

And on the outside of my mind is the only place i belong

And i'm trapped inside a soul that's just way too broke to be strong

And that's trapped inside a life that's just way too long to be gone

And i give shit i give yeah it takes too much to be whole

The irony in that shit man sometimes is great to be wrong

And i smile but shit gets harder 'cause my heart is growing

Further apart from the other vessels that make me more of my soul

That make me less of a help to everything that surrounds me

It's tough to know i'm lost but it's harder to think i found me

Lining all the remnants the pain all his descendents

My fear has never been falling i'm deathly scared of ascendance

Damn ,but i guess that's gotta mean something

I'm out of this world then i'm just hoping that i leave something

Smile n hearts, there are things that tear us all apart

But i still smile with my heart,

Even though that shit bound to be torn apart

And i , i still (dream)

I still (dream),i-i still (dream),i still (dream)

(i believe in you, no matter what we've been through,i believe)

I met a kid out in vegas desperately wanna make it

He said he runnin' from pain and just wants to know what will shake it

His girlfriend just had a baby ,he out and he ain't around

Ain't got the skills to raise no kid ,i never got to be a child

Never got to figure out what i wanted for mine,my dad bounced like a faggot

My mom was gone all the time, my stomach touching my spine

I had to go fucking grind, i took everything i wanted

The world was never fucking mine

These lies, they keep on feeding me lies

The son of a generation they keep denying me shine

They sayin' the world is mine but won't allow me to rise

So i got hell all in my heart and hatred all in my eyes

I'm froze, from my head to my soul

And i give shit i give but it takes too much to be whole,yeah

Ah, i just want someone to believe in me , tell me they know i'm hurt

But the goodness is all they see in me and

Smile n hearts, there are things that tear us all apart

But i still smile with my heart,

Even though that shit bound to be torn apart

And i , i still (dream)

I still (dream),i-i still (dream),i still (dream)

(i believe in you, no matter what we've been through,i believe)

Beaten to a pulp, from the bottom she made it

You can see i'm on the scan no discards have honestly fading

She look up into the mirror and what she seeing she hating

So much evil in this world and it's beauty just masquerades it

They hide behind all their secrets ,hide behind all their pain

I've been through so fucking much shit it's about to drive me insane

Sometimes i wish all the beating would knock it all out of my brain

Someone would just take the picture and crop me out of the frame

Yeah,and that's what's stolen my worth

Don't judge me about my appearance my soul is lower than dirt

My heart's been broken so many times i don't know if it works

And all i have is this smile and *that's the loneliest hurt

* and i'm froze stuck up in this place i only feel alone

And i give shit i give, but it takes too much to be whole

I want someone to fucking love me,

I'm tired to coming last to everything that's above me

And i smile,maybe it's a parody of all the tragedy inside us

We keep secrets like abortions,

Life stolen then frozen within our psyche's lies on ice

Dancing with the demons ,lips that rarely speak the truth

Acclimated by what we've been through,the mind is a terrible thing to waste

And at the same time it's a terrible place to wait

I'm wasting away,starting to expire, i see fire when your teeth show

Pride often of ego, thrown off like parts between syllables

Hiccups that can't be scared away, dreams not easy to decipher, conquer

But i still smile too but and inside i'm beating my knuckles to a bloody pulp

And even still i always wonder wonder what it would feel like to be beautiful

To feel like rain on rose petals,to feel like sunshine

And have a life without suffering constantly

I find myself awaken through it all and inevitably risen

Rippen like fruit branches on the tree of knowledge

And again i wonder why the good have to suffer

What it means to be gentle, what we mean to one another

What it means to be a lover

Smile n hearts, there are things that tear us all apart

But i still smile with my heart,

Even though that shit bound to be torn apart

And i , i still dream

You still dream,we still dream

Everyday, 'cause i believe in you ,