Song Cry

I painted a picture full of poetry

In hopes that you would notice the cracks

Showed you a clearer me

In hopes that you would mirror me back

In hopes that I could travel a road full of prose

And take that shit as far as it goes

That I could feel the hand of time give me a pat on the back

That I could mean everything I often say in my raps

But see, love is sort of different in the way that it hurts

But I would push through all the pain to show the weight of your worth

They say that the heart is all that sets us apart

But the fear you hold within is what determines the start

I will never ever end it all you claim that you want

And in the end you found you really never playing your part

It was love at least that’s what I figured it was

But it does, some shit you’d never think that it does

Like make you rip and tell her every single part of yourself

And show you things you probably never even thought of yourself

You made me hate like, every single part of myself

That was ugly or unwanted or just really unattractive, baby

You were my whole earth, I was barely on your axis.

Maybe if I was a different person, you would be affected, maybe..

I just felt me break inside of myself

And there’s really not a place on earth to hide from myself

It’s hard to find the truth when you barely be lying to yourself

And have a face full of pride that’s not inside of yourself

So I vow to never let my love outside of myself

It’s just a message in the bottle and that bottle’s myself

And somehow I still follow things I wish I could say

Like even when I love God’s never with us or away

Now I find myself alone because the bottom of my soul

Is just a whole bunch of nonsense a whole bunch of conscious

A whole bunch of old shit a whole bunch of problems

A whole bunch of substance a hole full of drama

And when every single hole that’s been punctured

The bottom of my soul becomes a whole fucking dumpster

For the time I made mistakes and wasting away

I knew things was just a failed attempt to take your place

And I know this is just a way of letting you go

But I be lying on this beat if I ain’t letting you know

You probably never know how it fucking feels when I cry

But here’s to every fucking tear in the shield of my eye

Hurt to see behind the smoke once it clears in subside

And every feeling that’s inside becomes a feeling you hide

Becomes a part of your past becomes a feeling denied

Becomes a strenght that it’s fail becomes a tear that you cry

Becomes a part of your soul becomes the heart of yourself

That you never once touched by any fucking one else

But I’m really just at war with myself

And this is just a fucking place in which I’m pouring myself

So I can’t seem ‘em coming down my eyes

But you also can’t feel the way I drown inside

Can’t see the massive amount the weight I hold

The type of shame I know the type of pain I hold

Keep it all inside this very picture frame I wrote

And love was just a missile…

And it kinda launched at a part of me particularly unprepared, unarmed, and unready.

And I’d fallen as it hit me..

I never wanted to be a part of something I had no knowledge of..

But you feel and you grow

And you hurt so you know..

Where to go…

I can’t feel em, I can’t see em..

I let em go.

I let em go.

Haze, uhh