A Romance Of Thorns

In paradisum

Deducant te Angeli

In tuo adventu

Suscipiant te martyres

Maybe I fell into despair

I saw the gates behind the mountains glare

I gazed at the realms of deep unknown

A crescent Moon above the silent snow

My dreams, as pure as one can be

Ebb of my thoughts, stream under a frozen sea

Powerless feelings imprisoned in myself

Maybe I fell into despair

A derelict soul in a body accurst

Pitiful, weak creature

I'm lost in a lightless, desolate place

Left alone dreaming, forever dreaming

Through the gloom I wander

Trying to deny a cold and hopeless reality

Alas, my anger is useless

And so is my own existence

I see myself walking endlessly

Amongst naked stones and ghastly trees

A dismal Sun is a poor guide, as my path

Won't end until the night

When the sullen red Sun rises

I put my head between my hands and pour

Remorseful tears

Over the wreck that is now my life

Repentance comes but it's always too late

What happened to all these years?

Time flew away in a blink

Sometimes I wonder what could have been

It's been so rough these days

To find the strength to carry on

Enclosed in myself

I feed an ancient sadness

A burden much bigger than me

Crimson oceans I see

As blood runs from my eyes

Still I yearn for deliverance

Watching through the window

The tedious barren plains

How many complaints echoed through these lands?

I live under cobwebs and garlands black

Countless sleepless nights

Have triumphed of my will

Wounds are carved into my soul

How I wish to run, how I wish to escape

Leave away my human husk

See it crumble to dust and disappear

While my spirit flies above the smoking pyre

Finally free from unfulfilled desires