Sunshine To The Rain

I spent my years isolated

Couldn't live with myself

I was trouble as a young kid

My tears didn't help

Very depressing and it was evident

I'd fade to the deep

All alone like these four walls came at me

Barricaded cuz my mind state

I just wanted to die

Never happiness

Just sad time living a lie

Rater leave me

I was suicidal

Slittin' my wrist

Mamma thinking I was crazy

Like use some sense

And on them days I was feeling

I was paining inside

It wasn't me

It was my inner feeling coming alive

I remember waking up like I was going to school

Left me standing in the hospital

Locked in this room

Put away

I was a troubled kid losing my mind

Fallin' short

Of what they expected from me everytime

So don't fault me if you meet me

And I look to be strange

I'm just mad that the sunshine dies in the rain

Sunshine to the rain

When it comes it goes again

Even when the story ends

Just turn the page and begin again

Sunshine on cloudy days

Don't hate me I'll never change

Thankful I was made this way

Your sunshine for cloudy days

Now I was raised in a neighborhood

With half of a dime

If you was real it was understood

It showed in your eyes

Every corner had a different hustle

Sprawled on your face

Drug wars

Growin' up raw cuz violence the case

Had to move along

Quiet it's kept

Spoken words got you dealt with

So ride with yourself

I'm a juvenile

They telling me get down for they wealth

No getting high

Cuz when you gettin' high

You needing some help

As far as help

Mine was middle though

You know how that go

Psychologically

I deal with demons talkin' in codes

Hopefully, I'll get to meet Jesus

Somewhere on this road

Sick of hearing people screaming in my head saying no

Better of if I was dead

Cuz they killing me slow

All in all it's just a part of my life

Watching the show

Ain't nothing never came to niggaz sleep

Except for a dream

It's like a movie with the ending credits etched in the screen

Sunshine to the rain

When it comes it goes again

Even when the story ends

Just turn the page and begin again

Sunshine on cloudy days

Don't hate me I'll never change

Thankful I was made this way

Your sunshine for cloudy days

I prayed my last days of sunshine

Just die in the rain

Kinda selfish

But I know that dying

Eases the pain

Heartfelt words

Spoken hurt

Provided the frame

For the picture I done painted for the master to explain

So I leave behind my testimony

Witness to give

Far from holy

But this matrimony provided the script

To live on

And live by

Grow up and grow on

Get on and get by

So forth and so on

And this here's the last days

I can hear the horns singin'

I can see the red sky

I can hear the drum beating

I seen the dead die

How long will they mourn Jesus

At least I'm saved by my scriptural warn readings

And while leaving you here

Believe what you believe in

But you don't want to not believe

Believe in seeing

Don't take this here too personal

'Cuz I'm just speaking

This is my family on my mind

Sunshine to the rain

When it comes it goes again

Even when the story ends

Just turn the page and begin again

Sunshine on cloudy days

Don't hate me I'll never change

Thankful I was made this way

Your sunshine for cloudy days