The Girl I Loved Before I Fucked

I can't even escape you in my sleep when all I need is rest

Knowing when I wake up I can't watch you get dressed

And pretend I'm sleeping and imagine you with child

A suggestion often made by me

And by you always reviled

I wanted to watch your body change

And loosen all your clothes

To hold a new born baby with your eyes and my nose

I suppose that was the first sign

That you never really were mine

My twisted spine is aching now

This bed's got so much space

In direct contrast to my mind

Which is cluttered with your face

You're the girl I loved before I fucked and that's so rare

So I'll help you leave your home while you decide if you still care

I really thought we never could end

Or at least I'd always be your good friend

But then I think about what you've done

And his tongue pressed against your tongue

Your bodies together in our bed

His cock in your cunt, his cock in your head

And instead of a new platonic future for you and me

I hope you get an abortion or at least an std

When out with married friends, I sat with them on the bus

I watched the way they were and that could never have been us

So the girl I loved before I fucked, you'll always be

But the woman you've grown into is no woman for me