Mad As a Hatter

I take you under the covers

Removing what ever shame you had left

There is beauty in the dark

Where my mothers defining features don't reflect

You look at my body, and you're not disgusted

You can find pretty things in the most obscene

I never knew there could be someone like you

Your lips tremble, as my body and words dissemble

I touch you in places my hands could ever dream of reaching

For under the covers your body feels like it's breaching

I am so sorry for behaving this way

I know that it's a reflection of my mothers and fathers shame

I don't want to be defined by my fathers complexion

Anger: Has raised so many moment, destroyed so many atonements

I am so tired of waking up alone in my bed, hugging a pillow

I think I need to swallow some lead

I am so afraid of making a 12-gauge decision

Whether or not to give you a marked zero salvation

Or to give myself a glockjaw with a pink mist ending

But you lie there sleeping

And I have to go back to dreaming

For no one can touch us there

And all of my inherited features are obsolete

It is truly here that I am free

I try to get you attention, I try make you understand

But how come I am the only one

The only one who fights for his sleep?

And how come that when I am finally dreaming

You're not sleeping?

And how come that when you are dreaming

You are never dreaming of me?

I am so afraid of making a 12-gauge decision

Whether or not to give you a marked zero salvation

Or to give myself a glockjaw with a pink mist ending