Murrain

In the dark of night i watch the shadows loom

The entity waits in the corners watching my every move

A knock at the door, a break in the waiting, an end to the silence

An end to the hopes and remains

I turn to the light and open the door

But cannot break the static sound

And all my actions amount to nothing

Whether giving up, or giving in, or never coming down

All the dreams i had to give were all the things you disdained

What used to be mine became yours in the end

What used to be pure had become so murrain

And the spirit of hope

Lies hopelessly still

The hurting will heal

But the heart never will

The dreams that i share

Are the first things they take

Sometimes i believe

I was god's first mistake

I don't believe in progress, i don't believe in change

I don't have anything you'd want to steal

I don't believe in god, i don't believe in love

And i don't believe i can feel

With cheshire cat smiles she shattered this trust

We used to have gold but it soon became dust

Set course on the waves and unfurled my sails

What used to be hope, just one more reason to fail

And the spirit of hope lies hopelessly still

And the hurting will heal but this heart never will

And the dreams that i share they are the first thing they take

Sometimes i believe i was god's first mistake...