Swallow Your Pride

I can sit here thinking about mistakes I've made

Why it's almost 5 am and I can't just close my eyes

And drift away to where everything will be ok

There's no place in my mind where I control my destiny

It's so cold, so warm my body can't decide

I'd be lying if I missed the feeling what its like to be inside

In a few more hours I will shower and I'll think

How could I fuck things up more and my brain is out of sync

One more hour, my heart is feeling sour but I can't express the taste

Of the shit that fills my head singing "I wish that I was dead"

And the time I spend awake is the time that I can't waste

I'm running out of gas

Still going nowhere fast

I need to kick my ass so I can make it past

Another hurdle in the race.

Tell me it's not okay

So I don't fall back to old ways

The shit needs to stop, I know we'll get on top

And get out of this place

Home Movies is on laying naked in my bed

I'm confused and just a little paranoid

Who would have thought without your guidance I would rot

And still I take advantage of the hospitality (insert fake apology)

Undeserving of this comfort, of this food thats in my stomach

It's no wonder I'm so awkward when I'm walking out in public

It's hard to take a stance when you're not wearing any pants

And the only thing I've got is some chords that make kids dance

Two more hours, the pain starts to devour and I can't express the taste

Of the shit that fills my head screaming "I wish that I was dead"

And the time I spend awake is all the time that I can't waste