Sadie

I can see her with my eyes closed

Maybe she's in a different time zone

I wasn't there when the lights went out

But also, what the hell do I know?

Most the time I feel like I'm living with my blinds closed

I've been making piles of these pencil shavings

Tryna draw her back to life

I remember saying, mom, I think you love her more than you love me

I know that was wrong

Tryna draw back the light

I've been making piles of these pencil shavings

As if that'll bring her home

Oh, and I know better

Despite the fact that y'all think I'm crazy

Well, I may be

But either way I'ma keep shading and erasing

Until I get the contrast right

And I'ma keep shading, erasing

Until I get the contrast right

I know it won't be tonight

And it won't be tomorrow either

But if I stop trying, my spirit might die

And my body would crumble

And you'd be left with neither

And where would leave us?

I don't know, I don't know

So I'ma keep shading and erasing

Until I get the contrast right

And I'ma keep shading and erasing

Until I get the contrast right

With my hopes so high and my head on fire

Am I floating or flying? Is my bed on fire?

Is this bed even a bed? Am I dead or tired?

There's red in my eyes, need a bed to disguise

Ain't not tread on my tires

I got sweat on my palms

Can't even hold this pencil no more

My head only lies

Can't trust my mental no more

Gon' sketch till I can't even stencil no more

Shading and erasing, yeah

I'ma keep shading and erasing

Until I get the contrast right

I'ma keep shading and erasing

Until I get the contrast right