Not Today

A thought of you that often grows in my dreams

As years pass on I can't divide myself from what I've done

I should start everything all over again

Just open my eyes and separate me from this

But the burden is framed within me, eternally

With the same consciousness

Of what I decided to keep to go on

It's all I ever known

Pouring my ink to fill it, my inner book

I got blank pages on

And going on is painful as looking back

Understanding what I left someday somehow

Looking at the scars that still burns

How I wish it was all that easy

Bringing solace deeply, how I wish I could

The rain keeps falling on these streets

As tears that cover my face with regret

That help retrieving the letters I can't forget

Motionless I pose

Accepting the mobility of reason

It's a selfish prison

You know, I fall into the void of weakness

The reason why

They hold on saying (they say you learn everyday)

I rather say (that I don't feel like growing up today)

Still picking up the pieces

Of times where I was down again

Make them a part of myself

I'll rebuild me

While days are

Standing still

I'm getting through them

I'll rebuild me