Hard Light

What can I do

I look for you

I lose my way again

The sheets are damp

The darkness spreads like a stain on the bed

I walk the floor

I close the door

I lock myself up again

I find a way to get along for one more day

I'll forgive you and I'll forget you

Outside a car alarm is wailing incessantly

Someone is slumped against the stairs looking up at me

The sirens call, I hit the wall

I tie myself down again

I want to fly away

I'll forgive you and I'll forget you

The silent birds observe as the traffic light changes idly

I wait for the street machine to sweep you back inside me

I'll forgive you and I'll forget you

I jerk awake from the distant isle of sleep

Dawn cracks, there's a hard light in place of your dreaming face

I thought you'd always be here

I thought I'd always have you near