Role Of a Lifetime

Everything's an act

When you're pleasing everyone

And he assumes that role

To such renown

He plays a perfect part

Straight from his heart

Knowing the risk he takes

And hoping that the house

Is not brought down

The role of a lifetime is living a fantasy

The trauma that you struggle to erase

Thoughts battle words over deeds

A war with such casualties

All played out behind a smiling face

God I need your guidance

Tell me what it means

To live a life where nothings as it seems

Spending days in silent fear

And spending nights in lonely prayer

Hoping that one day when you wake

Those feelings won't be there

So confused because I feel complete with him

When we're alone it all somehow makes sense

Look into his eyes for some compromise

Remember the word: Forget

And try to bury something so intense

You learn to play the straight man

Your lines become routine

Never really saying what you mean

But I know the scene will change

White picket fences, and a dog

A trophy bride and children

God I know that's what he wants

But Jason what role do I play

Am I a savior or a phase?

Am I here to damn you?

Or to help you navigate this maze

Where confusion is a crime

So you fill your life with sound

And if you dance like hell

You hope you never touch the ground

What happens when the music stops?

In the silence will he stay

One day you'll realize that these feelings aren't going away

So we drive ourselves insane

Spinning circles in our souls

As we dance around and play pretend

Then once again

Reprise our roles