Hold On

Doubting myself these days

Thinking that I'll lose it all

Know that I came so close

Thinking that I'm gonna fall

They say that the money really changed me

Say that I'm showing off

I say that I'm still the same

But deep down I know I'm wrong

Tryna go back to the old days

When money not the topic of the convo

People always ask if I'm still paid

People never ask what's wrong though

Everybody thinking that I made it

But lately I been tryna just hold on

All of my happiness fading

My brain been feeling like a war zone

People believing in me

But I don't believe that I got it myself

Money and numbers is all that they see

But I don't see happiness coming with wealth

Everything's smooth when you look at the surface

Wish you could see what goes on in my mind

Battling demons, they hidden inside

They keeping me paranoid every night

Like

Everything ain't what it seems

Focused on the wrong things

I been tryna hold on

I been tryna hold on

Hold on, hold on, hold on

Hold on to everything I got now

Praying I don't fall down

I been going all out

I could lose it all now

Hold on

Hold on, hold on, hold on

I been tryna hold on

Feel like I'm losing touch

With everyone that really been with me

Dad called my phone at lunch

Told him that I was too busy

But really I just act that way

One day he gon' be locked in the grave

I'ma wish I can get the time back

Talk to him 'bout all the time he gave

Up just to make sure I'm good now

'Cause life ain't never gon' be easy

He worked his way to put food down

Made sure he always could feed me

And I just hang up the phone now

'Cause I'm too focused on the CD

I'm tryna turn my dream into real life

But that's the problem, I don't realize

I'm trapped inside of my own world

Forget about life and the meaning

I'm tryna get back all my old girls

My mom is who I should be seeing

'Cause everybody ain't always breathing

And sometimes it happens outta nowhere

I'm praying that my family don't go there

But if they do, then I'll be on my own

Everything ain't what it seems

Focused on the wrong things

I been tryna hold on

I been tryna hold on

Hold on, hold on, hold on

Hold on to everything I got now

Praying I don't fall down

I been going all out

I could lose it all now

Hold on

Hold on, hold on, hold on

I been tryna hold on