Real Now

I've been goin' through some shit that's gettin' real now (yeah)

People dying all around me man I'm tellin' you this shit is gettin' real now (yeah)

Lost my grandma didn't know it can you tell me how that feel now? (yeah)

Got a message saying sorry for your loss I didn't know if it was real now

Praying that they got wrong number

Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now

I was goin' thru the motions I was doin' all my shit

Turnin' twenty in the city I was too focused to quit

Got on facetime with my granny and she told she was proud

One week later she was gone and now she up above the clouds

Never got the chance to tell that I loved her for her legacy

Everything she did and all she wanted was the best for me

Tell me why the good times always comin' with the bad

Never thought I'd see the tears ever comin' from my dad

I been on a mission ever since

Get it while I can

Everyday I gotta reminisce

Thinkin' bout the past

I been killin' all these beats

I've been shittin' on these rappers

I've been prayin' that I never gotta settle livin' average

Gotta buy my mom a crib

Gotta buy my dad a whip

Gotta buy my bro the world

Gotta get it while I live

I don't take no shit for granted cuz I seen it come and go

I'ma take over the planet yeah you fuckers better know

I've been goin' through some shit that's gettin' real now (yeah)

People dying all around me man I'm tellin' you this shit is gettin' real now (yeah)

Lost my grandma didn't know it can you tell me how that feel now? (yeah)

Got a message saying sorry for your loss I didn't know if it was real now

Praying that they got wrong number

Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now

I been battlin' these thoughts that been runnin' through my mind

Tryna make my parents proud takin' one step at a time

But nobody understands all the shit that I've been goin' thru

Workin' on the music while I'm studying in dental school

Thinkin' 'bout just dropping out and doin' what I love

But I can't imagine leavin' my whole family in the mud

But they never raised a coward I'ma finish what I started

I'ma juggle all this shit and keep on workin' at my hardest

I been goin' where my heart is yeah I know that I'm the smartest

Never think about the parties I been doin' what my part is

I been battlin' the best

I'ma let God do the rest

I'm not gettin' any rest

Workin' till I got up next

Yea I know this shit ain't what it seems but I know I'm blessed

Every time that life is hard man I know that shit a test

They been tryna cut the weak only made it for the best

I just pray before I sleep and now I get what I request