Maplewood

There's no time for things that I perceive as bringing out the worst in me

It's hard enough to get up off the ground

When I'm holding onto useless thoughts

A fight I wish I never fought

And now my back's against the wall

At least there's nowhere left to fall

Count the time it took to fix my lack of trust

I do all I can, but still it's not enough

Now I'm holding out to shed this ball and chain

I tried, but I'm still dragging dead weight

I'm lusting for the little things I love

I never learned of any self-control

'Cause I just couldn't bring myself to care

So many years I wasn't there

Now I'm living with no time to spare

My patterned overthinking isn't scarce

'Cause I just couldn't bring myself to care

Myself to care

And now my back's against the wall

At least there's nowhere left to fall

Count the time it took to fix my lack of trust

I do all I can, but still it's not enough

Now I'm holding out to shed this ball and chain

I tried, but I'm still dragging dead weight