Couches in My Head

I was looking at

Leaves and acrobats and

Gourds and scarecrows and the faces of the fall

I'm willing to bet

Someday I'll forget

How to love a leaf or love something at all

I'm considering

Choices that have led

To this and what it is I'm working toward

Things I loved but can't do anymore

I was swimming in

Cheap wood panelling

And differences that live inside my doors

I was thinking

Of faces in my head

Of people that I loved so hard before

I've be sinking in

Couches in my head

And girls that kissed me on my face before

Ones I loved but don't know anymore

I was living in

Tv show curtains

In bedroom in the houses of my friends

I'm considering

The ways beginnings end

And if I would die to be born again

I've been breathing in

Ghosts and oxygen

Of people in a sad and gaseous form

Ones I loved but can't see anymore