Still Sitting Here

I'm sitting here and waiting in this institution chair

The perfume of incontinence hangs heavy in the air

I'd like to read the paper, but I've forgotten how to read

A chance I might remember the name I used to be

My eyes are failing quickly, doesn't matter much these days

I mutter in the silence, it's just my peculiar ways

My mind's begun to crumble and my legs have given out

I'm laughing then I'm crying while the others scream and shout

Seven years or so I'm told that I've been sitting here

I used to be a someone, but that status is now gone I fear

My teeth they get collected so that I don't cause offence

Food is liquidised and the radio makes little sense

The photographs beside my bed are people I once knew

I know that I should recognise them, even just a few

In moments of great insights I might shake my fist with rage

But mostly I just sit here; I'm neither a clown nor a sage

I used to be a soldier, that was many years ago

When I can remember I've a medal that I'd like to show you

People who say they knew me, say I used to dance and sing

And play the pipe and whistle; I was married, there's a ring..

Did I love my wife so dearly and my children and their

games

I've forgotten what they look like, their faces and their

names

But in my dreams and visions I can see them very dear

Couldn't tell you where they are now, but I loved them

very dear

The Circuits in my mind have blown the wiring in my

head

When I die I wonder if I'll know that I am really dead?

Nothing seems to make much sense upon this time I

dwell

I'll drink my institution drink and sit another spell.

I'd love to smoke a cigarette and smell the new mown

hay

I'd love to hold a woman close and dance the night away

If I could just remember all the things I loved to do

Perhaps I wouldn't be sitting here... perhaps it would be

you

I might have been a prophet or a wise man or a fool

I might have had a kingdom over which I ruled

Maybe I was someone who no one really knew

Maybe I'm still sitting here alone and so confused