Rear View

I haven’t spoken to you in a long time

But it feels like yesterday I left your car a lonely kid

With tears in my eyes

What did you expect from me?

A little kid too fucking weak

To stand up to my enemies

Dad come on, I’m just thirteen

I’ll never be your prodigy

Accept that it’s not meant to be

I’m sorry for falling short

The things that I left behind don’t make me upset

Cause your apologies

They never meant that much to me

I’m so sick of trying to fight this sense of contempt

Cause your priorities

They never once included me

You’re patiently waiting in this hole again

But I kept in my head and to myself

So force your ways on someone else

You never gave me room to grow on my own

I feigned my interests in

All your hobbies

Just so I could have a shot

At making you happy

You know I tried

God, how I tried

But it’s so hard with no similarities

The things that I left behind don’t make me upset

Cause your apologies

They never meant that much to me

I’m so sick of trying to fight this sense of contempt

Cause your priorities

They never once included me

You’re patiently waiting in this hole again

But I kept in my head and to myself

So force your ways on someone else

You never gave me room to grow on my own

It took some time, but I find comfort in this message that I write

Cause you weren’t much to lose

I never needed you

It was time to shed that callus skin

Cause you were too hard on me

So I’ll say goodbye to all the times you called

And breathed honesty

And breathed honesty

And breathed honesty