Morning Tea

I think my mother died today

Or was it yesterday?

It’s hard to say

I found it odd when she never came

To bring my cup of morning tea

I think my girlfriend left today

Cos I forget her face when she waved at me

It’s such a plain face

It’s hard to see

But I think her name was Grace

All I want to do is disappear

Into the darkness of my room

Come away

I am numb

You can be numb too

Disappear slowly

De-attach now

Slip into nothing

Nothing at all

I went to buy some tea today

But couldn’t understand

A single word

He said to me

I could hardly breathe

And I left without my tea

I met my counselor today

She said you got the grades for a college degree

Academic life is the one you bleed

Your futures looking bright

All I want to do is disappear