Letter To Peep

I miss you so much, man

I just want to go and join you, man

It's so fucking lonely down here

Everything feels so different

I'ma see you soon, bro

I promise

Aye, Peep

Everyone you warned me about now claiming they miss you

Held your cold face, said good bye, hugged you then kissed you

Hopped up off that tour bus, stumbling in pieces

Hope you finally at peace now that you no longer breathing

When you was laughing the hardest, still felt your pain

That deep desperation gaze, cry baby face

You had had a thousand plays way back in the day

When you had them millions, you was still exactly the same

Both fucked up, living rough, had nothing

Edited your first video, you sent my paypal money

Didn't even want it but it stopped my sister being hungry

We was so connected, living in completely different countries

Flew out to la, uber to your place

Never seen so many strangers crowded in a tiny place

Everyone offering drugs, taking pictures of your face

No one offering love or wondering 'bout your day

Both heartbroken, introverted, so lonely

You was the only one of the few to ever really know me

Gus, what's it like up there, man? I wanna join ya

Struggling to keep it moving, tangled in paranoia

Everyone that wasn't loyal to ya, woulda killed 'em for ya

You had the same mentality 'cause family important

Gus, I'm tryna fight my fears, our childhood was poison

I got demons I been running from, never stood up and fought 'em

'Bout to take a flight back to london, yeah, in a few days

Where we lived together, I don't wanna see that place

All that bizare furniture you purchased, so awkwardly placed

You'd take a step back and stare at it until it looked okay

I held your face, took a step back, nothing looked okay, brother

You was shining bright, now you've turned into this grey color

Holding back the tears everytime I hear your name come up

I don't wanna say nothing, they don't know this pain's cutting

Tryna stay strong for loners like us

Made a video of you sleeping on the back of that bus

Made a joke, said that gus is working out finally

Put the camera on you to see that you was falling asleep

Everyday of that tour, like you usually do

Head back, mouth open, yep, the usual

I saw you like this everyday on the entire tour

I didn't know that you was dead, man, as if I would've recorded