Torches

I ain't got no faith in myself

And I can't see what I could love in you

From what I know, I even doubt what I cherish

And I hate the vague words

But I don't wanna be lost

I don't wanna see all I have when I stare at the mirror

Do we only exist to survive?

Do I only exist to survive?

For all the mess I leave

There is a price to pay

And no one to blame but me

I tend to care about nothing

But the bottles I've thrown to the sea

I'm falling apart

And carrying my faded torches

From time to time I tend to believe

Not only fists have been kissing my cheeks

'Cause I understand you only wear

The fucked faces of my failures

A thorn in the belly

And no hands to hold

The blood is pouring

And my body's cold

I've been writing poems to my stomach

Some words to make him feel alright

But I ain't got no pleasure in lying to this old friend of mine

And maybe he'll understand what I called the Sun

Is just easy mornings seeing all doubts gone

And the faith in all that lays in my head

Well, the Sun is still hiding from me

I guess it's all a business between my guts and I

Some kind of personal war

Some lights are meant to shine

Some suns are meant to hide

Just never forget who you are

A son, a friend. A heart, and a brain