Thoughts And Prayers

Is there any truth

To what you tell me you know about me?

I don't wanna underestimate your intellect

But something tells me there is something more to this

Go ahead and escape, a couple times a day

Will do you good but don't forget to bring yourself

Back to what you're terrified of every single day

(Yeah she's okay)

I am not like you

I wanna forget myself and be lied to

I don't know if anything is right

I'm just a girl who can't look herself in the eye

I am not like you

I wanna forget myself and be lied to

I don't know if anything is right

I'm just a girl who can't look herself in the eye

And in my dreams

I am somewhere where I can fall apart

I can think nothing and only

Feel what I need to

Who fuckin' knows what's up?

Who the fuck knows what's up?

Who really knows what's up?

Who the fuck knows what's up?

Thank God, thank God I'm not gay

Thank God, thank God I'm not scared

Thank God it's not fucking happening

Thoughts and prayers

Thoughts and prayers

Thank God, thank God I'm not gay

Thank God that I don't know anything

Thank God, thank God I'm not scared

Thoughts and prayers

Thoughts and prayers

It's the fucking worst isn't it?

It's so fucking cursed isn't it?

It's a fucking curse isn't it?

Thoughts and prayers

Thoughts and prayers

These bitches just wanna watch us die

They wanna pray over our dead bodies alive

They wanna

Leave us alone

We don't wanna fucking hurt anyone

We just wanna feel anything

Before we're done

Leave us alone

We just wanna have control of our lives

We just wanna get off

Feel safe and die

And in my dreams

I am somewhere where I can fall apart

I can think nothing and only

Feel what I need to

So do

Yeah, we're doing it

Okay

Just give me a second, uh

When's it start?

We're, we're doing it, right now

Okay, fine

Everything is movement, everything is hypochondriac

And pieced together from the fragments of losing

Sight of what I thought you wanted me to be

Though I've tried and it almost killed me

You cannot know this

You cannot pretend to be close with me

Psychosis batters at your worldview and gnosis

Whoa, it's only been a minute and a moment

And you're already done

This is praxis

Do you have anything to fight back with?

No, you lack it

Am I making you worry?

Is your vision getting blurry?

Yeah, you're gonna need glasses

I burn so fucking bright but your eyesight only sees ashes

I am long past this

Post-traumatic, manic

Consciousness blasted

Look in my eyes and see the person you damaged

How'd that sound?

And in my dreams

I am somewhere where I can fall apart

I can think nothing and only

Feel what I need to

Pick yourself off the floor

And look yourself in the eye

Leave us alone

We don't wanna fucking hurt anyone

We just wanna feel anything

Before we're done

Leave us alone

We just wanna have control of our lives

We just wanna get off

Feel safe and die