Swallowing Shadows - HollyLeaf

Stuck alone, swallowing shadows

Everything i've ever held close has crumbled

Broken code

I'm at a crossroad

Do i swallow my pride, stay and hide

Or face my families lies?

Tied

To a history of shame

Smeared names, who's to blame?

I'm trapped in the flames

Of my past

That they cast

All i ever wanted was to be something more

My family, my clan, the code, it's all i lived for

My lungs scream for air but how can i bare

To know that i am wrong right down to the core

How can i ust go free, when everything inside of me

Has been nothing but a fabricated reality?

I thought i knew my place

But that's all been erased

I'm going to die down here

I'm running out of breathing space

Half-blooded, minds flooded in a lake of doubt

Am i the punishment provided for a love not allowed?

Is starclan watching us now

From up in the clouds?

As i tumble and i fumble deeper down into this tunnel

Did they know all along despite it being wrong

That destiny can go beyond what rules were set upon

Does love matter where it came from

Or is it something that we should be numb from?

But when you push the love aside it doesn't hide the lie

How can i search and find the pride

Of having my life divided?

How could i have been misguided?

Ripped as a kit quick from my mother now split from my brothers

And it's getting darker and i have to wonder

Am i destined to go under

For all the sins i have covered?

All i ever wanted was to be something more

But now i know that I'm wicked straight to the core

My lungs scream for air but how can i bare

To know i left him bleeding by that stream shore

How can i just go through knowing what i had to do

Meant the death of someone just to keep him mute

He could have known this place, he could have made a change

He's going to die up there

I tore away his breathing space

All i ever wanted was to be something more

I know that i am wicked straight to the core

I left him bleeding by that stream shore

My family, the code is all i lived for

Stuck alone, swallowing shadows

Half-blooded mind's flooded

Tied

To a history of shame

Does love matter where it comes from?

Or is it something we should be numb from?

All i ever wanted was to be something more

But now i know that i am wicked straight to the core

I left him bleeding out on that stream shore

My family, the code, it's all i lived for

It's all i lived for

It's all i lived for

Now i have nothing to live for