Redemption Denied

You know sometimes when I get up in the morning,

I don't know if I can face another day

because shit's been so fucking hard for so fucking long

and it don't seem like shits ever going to change.

Sometimes when I look in the mirrior,

I look despised at what I see cause pride

strength, all of love and life they don't seem to have alot to do with me.

Feels like something went wrong with me a long time ago,

something inside me way deep down died

and I can't remember when,

I just don't know where the fuck I went wrong...

What's life but a river of tears anyway, huh?

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For away to make my way through this world full of shit

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost too many times too many times to count the pain is so great

Let me tell you something, rock bottom is a sweet fucking dream,

a myth made up by a liar who's dispear you can slip into forever.

I've been as low as you can go

and I guess here at the bottom the only place you can go is up,

but everytime I get ahead everytime I start to get somewhere

it's seems like someone or something knocks me the fuck back down.

One step forward, two steps back.

I read somewhere "without hope you will die"

...I think I've lost hope

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I'm so tired of being fucked up all the time

but I can't seem to do it any other way,

maybe I'm not as strong as you

but sometimes my fucked up life brings me down

when I look around.

My life it didn't make me hate

it just hardened something deep down inside of me.

I think it was my humanity.

I want it back, I want to feel normal again, I wanna feel like a human.

I don't wanna be like this no more,

I'm just looking for some shelter of salvation

or something to believe in or just maybe someone who cared.

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I never asked for life

I wish that at birth I had died

I tried to drown this hate

Death will be the cure for all this pain

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I never asked for life

I wish that at birth I had died

I tried to drown this hate

Death will be the cure for all this pain

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

I've got nothing left

I await for the angel of death

I've lost to many times to many times to count the pain is so great

I never asked for life

I wish that at birth I had died

I tried to drown this hate

Death will be the cure for all this pain

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

There's no where to turn, everyone betrays you.

I can't trust anyone and I'm so fucking paranoid.

I'm allways waiting for the phone or door.

It's just nobody for sure.

I can't remember when a day's gone by

that I haven't thought about bringing myself up.

I know I ain't shit but I know I'll never be shit.

I've got no future but I think I can deal with it, I think I can live,

if I can just look at one person

and see them smile at me and know that they meant it.

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit

Every Day

Each fucking day I pray

I pray to a god that I know does not exist

For a way

Some fucking way

Some day

For a way to make my way through this world full of shit