Again And Again

It began sometime last week

The feeling that most everything was changing for the worse

All the triggers pulled at once

So begins my ugly fall from grace - again

I made myself delusional, the noble stab at staying upbeat

It was only for a while

Tried my best to radiate through hurricanes and double eights

The pair split into two

Talking points from up on high

Watch me walk the ledge, I am comfortable out here by myself

You could never reach me here

Words distroted in the wind, landing softly there beneath the trees

Our trip to California, don't say I didn't try to warn you

Put down the cell phone, and try to be with me

Did you see me disappear like vapor rolling through the hills

And then, the silence of your name

I never found the trust I needed from you

Everything you did was making me wonder

My biggest mistake was taking you back

Again and again

Couldn't forgive the things that you did

I'm glad it worked out for you, but

You're only fooling yourself if you think you won't do it

Again and again

Sad attempts at poetry, sad attempts at happiness

The sadness of reality

I'm OK, I've been OK, I'll stay OK

I took the bullets from the carport, toossed them in my backpack

Placed a set of keys inside the grill

I left the title to the house inside the piano bench

And my lawyer's got the will