Fear (feat. Monoxide Child, Blaze)

Visions of my childred wiping tear from open eyes

As they Kneel baside my coffin family say their last goodbyes

But ita the faces of my babies got me trippin thankin god for breath

Expressions filled with pain has got me strappin on the vest

And I know that I aint living right I hang on borrowed time

And this life's gome leave them bastards cause they pops has got to grind

Little mouths have got to eat so I hug them hit the streets

Spittin time with them and money got me feelin incomplete

And I aint scared of any mothafucka fight the flames of hell

But a child without his dad has got me hiding in my shell

Got me shikin in my boots to see them face this world alone

Are the strong enough to cope stuck in half a fuckin home

As I lay them down to sleep its all on me their soul to keep

And if I die before I wake I pray to

God he's up there waitin

With an army full of angels strapped with gats cause

I'm defying

Since I first became o father only fear I have is dying

This situation has got me losting sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

This situation has got me losting sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

[Blaze]

After all that I have ever done

And all that you will ever see for life

Death beyond the grave

How will they remember me

I only fear the lost of my voice

When its gone

The only noise is the pen

Im a writer by choice

I can cut my tounge clean off

And smoke myself toothless

I still be on the mic

Spittin shit they call ruthless

The truth is

I go deaf dumb and blind in one ear

And be the dopes deaf dumb blind guy you ever hear

I aint scared of dyin

Death I've been there

The pine box for many years

My return aint bull aint no reincarnation

Get lost in translation

This situation has got me losting sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

This situation has got me losting sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

[Monoxide]

Eyes open but I dont remember much

I try to focus but the light is bright as fuck

I go to sit up but Im strapped and stuck

Stuck panic cant say nothin

Like my jaw is wired shut

How the fuck did get to where I am is still a mystery

My memories not assistin me

As I lay here in misery

Literally hopin some body would give me some kind of time

Im I dead of alive

Is this a dream or a sign

Is there a chance I can find my mind and rewind

But paint me behind blinds and find somethin

Its like a game but nobody told me we were playin

And the fact that I dont know if Im alive and sane

And inside my brain only one thing remains

The fear of no knowing paralyzes all most everthin

An second can be my last breath

And my best guess is nothin with on memories left

Im sorry

This situation has got me losting sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me

This situation has got me losting sleep

I can not eat

Im feeling weak the fear has got me

On my knees

The fear has got me