Shades of Grey

My darkest hour, was pitch black

Rain clouds in the sky, could only see when the lightning strikes

Withered flowers, hang with their heads down

The weight splashes inside and keeps falling

No smiles, beauty hidden for protection

Until trampled by shuffling feat

Until a new season arrives and brings joy

In times of desperation, seeking to be noticed

And all i want is to be trimmed of these thorns

To seem more inviting to the poor

Unfortunate reflection of my selfish existence

Can it be? it was all so simplistic

Sipping on my sorrow while it's washing it away

Trying to add color to these shades of grey

And trying to make sense out of all this confusion

Embrace my reality and unmask illusions, holograms

I advance on a quest with many questions

Distracted for a second but i know that i destined

Counting my blessing, renewed everyday

And i know i'd never grow without these shades of grey

What could drive a man off a cliff, lost in thoughts

Analyze life to find what's real and what's not

Forgotten faces, flashing through my conscience

A conquest for freedom, constant forward motion

Leaving egypt, past erased from attachment

To start from scratch with the bricks that established

My true identity, secret to most

Deeper then known, i'm keeping it close, to my heart

Written on stone tablets, alone in my magic

Advice projected, correcting bad habits

Laughing as i drowned in mystical tears

Mind consumed by thoughts that my physical fears

I can't, listen with ears, cause words will deceive

As i stand up against darker versions of me

Looking over my shoulder, waiting for false moves

Dancing around land-mines and get lost in the grove

What happens?, when all the light slowly fades away

And you try to see god inside a shades of grey

He's ever-present, through our mistakes flaws and folly

He could have left me falling, but instead he called me

And i answered, silent and unsure what to say

Just thanking him for life even with the shades of grey

This life is unpredictable, no limits or restrictions

It's filled with opportunities and filled with addictions

So much joy, yet so much affliction

Pain and oppression, shame and conviction

So much we see yet, so much we're missing

So much to change and so much we're fixing

Faith and forgiveness, chaos destruction

Poverty, paychecks, starving children and corporate lunches

Love, peace, war, hate and hunger

Fall, winter, spring, summer, sunshine and thunder

I'm going under, now i'm rising

How much time is left? there's no rewinding

Sometimes even the light can seem blinding

I wash my thoughts in blood to keep my mind clean

I don't have everything i want

I've always had everything i needed everything hasn?t always went how i planned it

But i wouldn?t change who i am even if you offered me a mansion

Just existing is enough, just living

I'll do my best to make the right decisions

Until the day heaven takes me away

I'm gonna make the most of life even with the shades of grey!