Last Date

Im stood waiting, waiting for this girl to appear

Its been 40 minutes and Im still here

The last trains due and that's just like you

Im in the station - hard, concrete fridge

By this pieced-up bridge

Shes always f#@*^n late and doesnt't't't even see the pisstake

Been 2 years and Im still living in my first mistake

Im standing here with a stray frost bitin

And December air stinging my nose

My grip tightens on my stone hands

See, I know she isn't with another man

She just takes her time because she really doesnt't't't give a damn

And when she's finally here she's all smiling

No apology, I could have been chillin on my island

But how am I ? You don't know cos you don't even care to ask

Arrogant, assuming that Im happy and were gonna last

And fail to see the way you mess with my head

I feel to dis you - call out my exs name in bed

Now, defeat you or attack you ? Do neither I play statue

For every wise response, a sly remark, I can't match you

Cos logics out the widow and reasons out the door

Im looking hard at it like tracks by Main Source

Of course Im vexed, you say I want you for [what !?]

Were going nowhere, moving round in circles, jogging on the spot

Its all so familiar now but back then

You were bringing up things I said way back when

Flashing all the right smiles trying to twist my friends

Why is the way you act so irrational ?

Its like talking to a brick wall about the price of cement

Demented ways of acting that defy all sense

Not your time of the month it's just your time to waste time

Letting off steam, breaking shit, trying to rip my rhymes

Put the pad down slowly please take a step back

And don't even think about going for the multi-track

You got a temper like Flashman, bully-styles late night

My mum and dad are in the next room, stay quiet

You give me more shit than teachers did

You need to smoke some of this and calm down quick

Arguings an option but there's got to be a reason

And by the way, I don't respond to blackmail either

See Im a true believer in some self-respect

And Im about to call your bluff if you're threatenin to jet

I can't stand slanging matches, I retreat into my shell

Only cos you wont listen while you're giving me hell

Id like to call an analyst or just record the conversation

Just to make you listen to it and point out the contradictions

Im tired of listenin, you can't believe Im faithful

Youre pissed off cos Im not eternally grateful

Youre the funny type, then again, similar to many of my friends

Same shit, different girl, time and again

The same hassles, the same game and the same end

The same blend, the best ever when it's time for bends

A firework, ready for war with me

But Im just tryin to write a rhyme right now and drink my tea

Why you startin on me ?

See, I was thinking we were team-mates

And don't be tryin to tell me that it's over cos you're too late..

Im not psychic

Im not a sidekick