Better Me

Lately I been feelin'

I've been puttin' on a show

Try to turn away

But I can't seem to let it go'

Feelin' like the devil's got his hands around my throat

I'm choking, choking, broken

Wish I could say that

I knew where this would go

Before the start of something

I couldn't control

I feel like the devil's got his hands around my throat

Choking, choking, I'm broken

See I ain't got it all together

People lookin' at me like I got the answers (I don't)

Walking through the city with my head up

But I'm still feelin' the pressure

And when I say that I'm okay

I'm really not though (not though)

I try to cover up the pain

I gotta stop though (stop though)

'Cause I don't wanna lose

Everything that I got so

I'm gonna try to make it right

Gonna try to fix my life

Gonna fight to survive

Ain't gonna listen to the lies

I'm just gonna fight

And if I die, that's okay

I know where I'm going

At the end of the day

If only I could keep myself together

For a change

This is not the party that I wanna show up late to

Gotta know it's not a game against you

Rather with you

Only if you choose to

I ain't one to point fingers

'Cause I got my own issues

Try to lay it out

Try not to confuse you

I'm not who I wanna be

I'm not like I used to be

Who I used to be

Wish I could remember how I used to live

Lately I've been thinking

'Bout the words I've said

Things I did

I can do better

Lately I been feelin'

I've been puttin' on a show

Try to turn away

But I can't seem to let it go'

Feelin' like the devil's got his hands around my throat

I'm choking, choking, choking

Wish I could say that

I knew where this would go

Before the start of something

I couldn't control

I feel like the devil's got his hands around my throat

Choking, choking, I'm broken

I ain't finished

No I've got some unfinished business

History ain't short

But I'm tired of keeping secrets

Tired of walking 'round with people

Who don't know the difference

Tired of vibin' with people that don't know the business

But I ain't tryna lose my show

I know it's hard to keep it

Ain't gon' let my observations get the best of me

I wanna see a better me

That what I wanna see

I wanna see a better me

I ain't got time to flee

That's for the market

That ain't gon' be a part of me

I'm gonna stop it

The part of me that are losin' sleep

'Cause I ain't had it

Yeah I've been staying up for weeks

I know it's bad

But I ain't seen no one stopping me

I only see what I wanna see

It's bad for me (bad for me)

I only go when they needed me

Emergency

I only want what I don't need

When will I realize

All I need is what I can't see

It takes a week

Before I'm back doing the same thing

You'd think I learned

But I guess I can't see clearly

'Cause while my vision is up

'Cause I ain't givin it up

I'm holding back because I know about the things that I've done

When will I trust in them

When will I love again

Hope it doesn't take me

Losing everything to realize

He's enough again

Oh I wanna be in love with him

I wanna come back home again

'Cause Lately I been feelin'

I've been puttin' on a show

Try to turn away

But I can't seem to let it go'

Feelin' like the devil's got his hands around my throat

I'm choking, choking, I'm broken

Wish I could say that

I knew where this would go

Before the start of something

I couldn't control

I feel like the devil's got his hands around my throat

Choking, choking, I'm broken

I wanna see a better me

Better me